who i am not

i am i am i am
i don’t know who i am anymore

clapping hands
sparkling eyes
are enough to lift my feet off the ground and make me fly?

i am no eagle
i am no swan
the force of gravity pulls

who i am not
boss, leader
who i am not
star, hero
who i am not
god, father
who i am not

who i am not
loser
who i am not
normal
who i am not
special
who i am not

a name crumbles to letters
a soul vaporizes to tears
an ego vanishes into qualms
a body decomposes into scars

who i am not

i am no eagle
i am no swan
the force of gravity pulls
and i don’t know who i am anymore